a scene and fantasy is the title of a poem i wrote in the summer of 2019; it explores the feeling of being in a room with others and suddenly realizing your mind is miles away, coming in and out awareness. in clearer terms: it aims to capture a narrators experience of dissociation, their attempts at pushing themselves back into the scene by noticing the room around them, and the dread they feel when they do finally snap back to their own thoughts and the reality around them. the scene is presented as fantastical snippets of one’s memory from the event, while the fantasy is shown as a scene the narrator dreams at the peak of his dissociative spell. 

i found the horn to be a perfect voice for this feeling. it is warm and inviting, but when pushed to the extremes of its lower range, and allowing for some changes in intonation and embouchure, can sound quite discomforting. the text is set to the poem, mostly syllabically, as i want the meter of the poem and the rhythmic notation to work in tandem, and i want the words to guide the character of the piece as well. ultimately, every rhythm but what is marked march-like can and should be up to the performer to match to the meter and character of

i have adorned some notes with arrows, which are to raise or lower the pitch of that note by no more than 50 cents (a quarter-tone), which is to be done by changing the embouchure to suit. as well, there is some graphic notation being employed, which denotes a larger variance of pitch correspondent to the graphic’s location in pitch space.